i did very little all weekend. i didn't even go grocery shopping. and taking #8 to a talent search sunday morning. she wanted to do it, so we went early and being #31 we were out of there before the hundreds of latecomers showed up.

she had fun.

and i slept a lot. and was actually sick on sunday night. didn't think i'd be able to get up this morning, but i did.

it's 14 hours from the time i am out the door, to the time i am back in. and i can't think of a way to manage this better.

work was ok today. but i just don't have enough energy to give it what it deserves, what with spending so much time on things like commuting.

i'm old. and i can't do this anymore. but i'm stuck thanks to this fucked up economy. and i have friends who need more from me when i can't even drag myself out to go and have fun anymore. this is fucked up every which way.

and just yesterday was thursday. i shit you not. and now i have to go and do some grocery shopping. tomorrow i will be walking 3 miles home because #8 has taekwondo and cannot walk that 3 miles alone, due to the bad neighborhoods.

i really am trying to make this work.