so. this afternoon a woman stopped at my house, claiming to be the house owner, and wanted to inspect it.
the 18 yo, not knowing what to do, allowed her to enter.
the unknown woman said that some person from the church across the street had called her and claimed that we trashed the house.
the unknown woman asked the 18yo all sorts of questions. made accusations that we had painted the inside of the house the hideous colors (which i've asked often if we could change to no avail).

i've left a message with the landlord. maybe he can clear things up.
but he won't be able to make me any less upset...

this has me so rattled i am wondering what the hell i'm doing working outside my house!

i could so easily slip into agoraphobia the way i'm feeling right now. i'm trying to keep things in perspective but i want to be home with my children NOW! fuck the money. other people live on welfare and stay home rearing up their kids. why do i have to be so fucking responsible that i'm inadvertantly endangering the very ones i hold dearest?

fuck you, you fucking conservatives who hate welfare mothers!
fuck you, you fucking liberals who made it so EASY for their father to walk away and leave us penniless and me without a shred of alimony!
fuck the fucking "village" who condemns me for fighting so hard to rear my kids alone!
fuck the fucking perverts who, one by one, are stalking us and stealing my peace of mind away from me!

fuck you all! fuck you all! fuck you all!

the landlord called back and said that the name the person gave was indeed the owner of the house. he also apologized and stated that owners are supposed to go through him to arrange a walk through. he apologized again and said he would speak with the owner about this. he also said he really understood why i was a bit upset.

but i'm preparing for the worst. it's just best that way.

self,
it may not have been the best idea to write a letter to the sister who tells people you are possessed and write in it the results of a rune reading you did on her.
even if it completely applies.
nope. probably not a good idea.

probably not a good idea to sign it "your sister - the witch", either.

some people just have no sense of humor...