“In days of doubt, in days of dreary musings on my country’s fate, you alone are my comfort and support, oh great, powerful, righteous, and free Russian language!”
- Ivan Turgenev
- Ivan Turgenev
yay! my local car care guys are going to get the car and bring it back right now! and they are giving me a 100 dollar discount for the tow, which is not quite half price, for being a regular customer.
now if the stress blister that is forming on my lower lip would just go away...
now if the stress blister that is forming on my lower lip would just go away...
i dunno about #5. she is 19. and pretty immature. in fact, it is rather surprising just how immature she is. her immaturity is in stark contrast to the youngest 3 who are far more mature than she is.
such oddities.
such oddities.
if i had a time machine, what famous musician would i travel back in time to see?
mozart.
mozart.
fathers and sons, ivan turgenev. read it today. very well written. turgenev has a way with words.
but he just couldn't make me like bazarov. and that's two heros in a row he has failed to make me like.
moving on to dostoevsky now: brothers karamazov.
but he just couldn't make me like bazarov. and that's two heros in a row he has failed to make me like.
moving on to dostoevsky now: brothers karamazov.
made a decision: i will have the local guys tow my car here.
i am totally in a quandary. my car is 40 miles away. i am here. i have no money. the shop up there wants 500 bucks to change the waterpump.
i had a meeting today with the head of the library archives (is he a curator?) and the head of the german language department. they were two very excited people about the prospect of me doing this. why is that??? is this a big deal? i will be the first german major doing this. but i am stuck wondering what it is that i am missing: why are the two of them so excited?
i am now to write a proposal for my independent study project for next semester. one of my friends told me it looked like i was headed to grad school...
the nearest grad school that has what i would like for a grad program is in austin...
i think my grandparents will have a cow.
i am now to write a proposal for my independent study project for next semester. one of my friends told me it looked like i was headed to grad school...
the nearest grad school that has what i would like for a grad program is in austin...
i think my grandparents will have a cow.
a miracle happened today in the PEP boys shop: i didn't have a heart attack when i saw their estimate!
in other news, i no longer think it is the waterpump, so i will fix it myself tomorrow.
in other news, i no longer think it is the waterpump, so i will fix it myself tomorrow.
there's always a catch. so i watched that movie today, and it made me feel good. but now i feel really really sad. unhappy. and i am reminded again of all that has passed me by and all that isn't waiting for me.
i guess that's just what i need to expect.
and now i am going to bed. it has been a difficult day. i really should have stayed in bed this morning. :(
i guess that's just what i need to expect.
and now i am going to bed. it has been a difficult day. i really should have stayed in bed this morning. :(
the cartastrophe totally made me forget...
we watched the last of our german films in class today. it was a simply wonderful film called bella martha. i have fallen in love with the italian guy in the lead role. it made me smile. and i haven't really smiled in awhile.
i also entered two pieces of my writing into a writing contest on campus.
we watched the last of our german films in class today. it was a simply wonderful film called bella martha. i have fallen in love with the italian guy in the lead role. it made me smile. and i haven't really smiled in awhile.
i also entered two pieces of my writing into a writing contest on campus.
home now, without my car.
how am i going to manage this???
i am going to try not to worry about it till tomorrow after class and meetings.
how am i going to manage this???
i am going to try not to worry about it till tomorrow after class and meetings.
and that was the end of that. here I sit in arlington. stranded. I think its the waterpump on the mustang. someone is coming to get me in an hour. but the mustang will be staying here. helluva place to strand me... now I have absolutely no choice but to go borrow more money from my grandparents. I was hoping to avoid this with all my being.
another wasted day. i can't get my head straight enough to work on the stuff i could be working on.
germany alone, 3000 dollars american to study in Duesseldorf at the Goethe Institute for 4 intensive weeks, not including airfare. 7000 dollars for 5 weeks in russia, including airfare.
doesn't matter. can't do anything at all.
don't think i could sell the car for that much, let alone get that large of a loan on the title...
doesn't matter. can't do anything at all.
don't think i could sell the car for that much, let alone get that large of a loan on the title...
financing next summer...
it doesn't look like i will be able to do next summer. much less be able to finish uni without living out of my car.
i am immensely frustrated, and depressed at how people who said they would be going no where and that i could count on them, are all leaving me and are all not dependable.
it is going to be an incredibly stressful thanksgiving and christmas. the economy has fucked me over. a couple of my kids have fucked me over.
and very little of the things i have for sale are selling.
i feel sick to my stomach.
it doesn't look like i will be able to do next summer. much less be able to finish uni without living out of my car.
i am immensely frustrated, and depressed at how people who said they would be going no where and that i could count on them, are all leaving me and are all not dependable.
it is going to be an incredibly stressful thanksgiving and christmas. the economy has fucked me over. a couple of my kids have fucked me over.
and very little of the things i have for sale are selling.
i feel sick to my stomach.
interesting. the girls are studying animal farm at school.


